i really wish i hadnt brought up the word weed in the first place, it was more or less a joke then it turned into all this shit and its the only thing anyone is commenting on. this was an amazing post until we got off on that tangent.
and i still hold by what i said, nothing matters. its a general statement and plenty of exceptions i'm just saying i hate the state of the world and the state of society. i dont give a shit about having a family and a bullshit career and a house and 2 camrys in the driveway. and other than furthering my understanding of film, i think school is a joke. i think its a scam, this is an exaggerated way to put it but its like the media brainwashed us into wanting all this shit, so it trains us to be greedy selfish money hungry monsters. so we go to school like they say and they feed us shit, then they pretty much put up a fictional ultimatum- either you go to school and join the work force or you join the work force. they have you over your head in debt before you're old enough to buy your own beer. then once they train you to run their evil corporations your head is so far up your ass you'll break all the ethics in order to make your money and thats exactly what they want you to do because thats the basis of all american corporations-make money and fuck who is in your way.
THATs the kind of shit that doesnt matter. so instead i decide to devote my life to art and abstraction and experimenting. and if i can smoke a joint and relax and be less like the other fucks in society, and be able to see art in a more spiritual way, then i'm going to do it. sometimes it makes me happy, sometimes i have an existential breakdown, but its all about getting to the core of my existence and expressing my thoughts and feelings.
hopefully this is the end of the weed discussion.