I am at a crossroads and I am trying to make a good choice.
I believe if you wake up a few mornings in a row with dread than you must make some sort of huge change. The last few mornings I've woken up with a huge amount of dread. I did some soul searching and I realize that I need to move.
I currently live in Azusa. Why? I was supposed to finish my B.A in film there. But I don't have the money to finish school and quite frankly there isn't anything else a film school could really teach me that I haven't learned on set or read about in books and watch in movies (I had a film class that just showed movies). I lived in Santa Monica for a year. But because rent is so high there (a shared room is $850 and they are hiking it up to $925) I had to move.
Azusa is in the middle of no where so it does suck majorly. My options are to move to North Hollywood to a place that has a curfew ( I am about to turn 23) and if you break the rules they practice corporal punishment (no joke). I was unemployed for a bit. I just got a job in Santa Monica, so I have to go almost six hours in total to and from work.
I am trying to find places here. But it's tough. A lot of people are flakes and most places are expensive.
But then it came to me: I'm not so sure that I am an L.A guy. I mean it is cool that you can meet people who are filmmakers, actors and whatnot. But that does get old. I think the best way to be a good artist is to have interests outside of the field. If it wasn't for my love of racing I would have never made my last short. In New York you meet people that are bit more diverse.
I am also tired of the people here. Flakes, weirdos, etc. After my last experience on short I got got really soured to the people around here. And I already know that I want to short my first feature in New York.
I am primarily an actor. I have written all my life and got into screenwriting a little after I started acting (I started acting in late 2011 when I was a union solider in Lincoln). I then started directing last year. I love film and I really want to act in more films. But the last feature that I was in came out in 2013 (I actually had four I was in that came out that year). In Maryland I was in the "indie" movement there. Most of the work was unpaid. But I was getting some good acting experience. I had a very big supporting roles too. In L.A my agent only submit me for big parts. So I have only been on three auditions this year (I auditioned for the role of York in the Lewis and Clark mini series, a commercial, and a voice over in some indie). Only the first did I feel a connection to the role. Even then I kinda knew I wasn't going to get based on age, size, and lack of fame. I called this production company that is producing a movie that I submitted myself for. They basically told me that they only hire actors and actresses with extensive film credits (basically somewhat known actors). I am proud of my resume, I've had ten roles in t.v, short films, and feature films. I've been in plays. I've had a good amount of training. But I guess it isn't enough.
Also my social life in L.A sucks. I don't have a car. I don't have any friends. I don't have a girlfriend. It's rather lonely.
I want to focus on becoming a better actor and becoming a working actor. I am tired of working shit jobs. I want to just act. While doing this I want to finish my feature and get it made.
The only downsides to New York that I can see would be the weather (I am from Maryland so I at least know what I could be in for) and the heart of t.v and film is in L.A for sure. But I just want to audition and do some plays. While Broadway does seem keen on casting huge names. There is always a place for young actors on stage. And there is always off Broadway.
If I went to New York I'd go to an acting school, go out on auditions for plays, and develop this feature. I really want to get into the indie scene though. That's the best way for me to get acting work in films that I have nothing to do with from a back of the house side of things.
What do you guys think?
I believe if you wake up a few mornings in a row with dread than you must make some sort of huge change. The last few mornings I've woken up with a huge amount of dread. I did some soul searching and I realize that I need to move.
I currently live in Azusa. Why? I was supposed to finish my B.A in film there. But I don't have the money to finish school and quite frankly there isn't anything else a film school could really teach me that I haven't learned on set or read about in books and watch in movies (I had a film class that just showed movies). I lived in Santa Monica for a year. But because rent is so high there (a shared room is $850 and they are hiking it up to $925) I had to move.
Azusa is in the middle of no where so it does suck majorly. My options are to move to North Hollywood to a place that has a curfew ( I am about to turn 23) and if you break the rules they practice corporal punishment (no joke). I was unemployed for a bit. I just got a job in Santa Monica, so I have to go almost six hours in total to and from work.
I am trying to find places here. But it's tough. A lot of people are flakes and most places are expensive.
But then it came to me: I'm not so sure that I am an L.A guy. I mean it is cool that you can meet people who are filmmakers, actors and whatnot. But that does get old. I think the best way to be a good artist is to have interests outside of the field. If it wasn't for my love of racing I would have never made my last short. In New York you meet people that are bit more diverse.
I am also tired of the people here. Flakes, weirdos, etc. After my last experience on short I got got really soured to the people around here. And I already know that I want to short my first feature in New York.
I am primarily an actor. I have written all my life and got into screenwriting a little after I started acting (I started acting in late 2011 when I was a union solider in Lincoln). I then started directing last year. I love film and I really want to act in more films. But the last feature that I was in came out in 2013 (I actually had four I was in that came out that year). In Maryland I was in the "indie" movement there. Most of the work was unpaid. But I was getting some good acting experience. I had a very big supporting roles too. In L.A my agent only submit me for big parts. So I have only been on three auditions this year (I auditioned for the role of York in the Lewis and Clark mini series, a commercial, and a voice over in some indie). Only the first did I feel a connection to the role. Even then I kinda knew I wasn't going to get based on age, size, and lack of fame. I called this production company that is producing a movie that I submitted myself for. They basically told me that they only hire actors and actresses with extensive film credits (basically somewhat known actors). I am proud of my resume, I've had ten roles in t.v, short films, and feature films. I've been in plays. I've had a good amount of training. But I guess it isn't enough.
Also my social life in L.A sucks. I don't have a car. I don't have any friends. I don't have a girlfriend. It's rather lonely.
I want to focus on becoming a better actor and becoming a working actor. I am tired of working shit jobs. I want to just act. While doing this I want to finish my feature and get it made.
The only downsides to New York that I can see would be the weather (I am from Maryland so I at least know what I could be in for) and the heart of t.v and film is in L.A for sure. But I just want to audition and do some plays. While Broadway does seem keen on casting huge names. There is always a place for young actors on stage. And there is always off Broadway.
If I went to New York I'd go to an acting school, go out on auditions for plays, and develop this feature. I really want to get into the indie scene though. That's the best way for me to get acting work in films that I have nothing to do with from a back of the house side of things.
What do you guys think?