Gavin said:
maybe its coz i'm different. I want fame because I wanna have the money, meet a group of new people and move away from my family. I dont wanna be in contact with them anymore
You can get all of that without fame Gav!
Already you've met new friends here, and given time and effort you can make some money and move away. Just remember, that no matter how badly people treat you, you can't hold that against them. Some people have no conception how to deal with thier own problems, so they take it out on others... instead of getting angry at them, pity them (but don't put yourself above them).
I'm not saying take shit from people, just understand shit, and try to be positive about it.
Money does NOT equal happiness... that's public domain, dude. Money can make life easier, and make it harder depending on how much you have, but it's all in the mind about being happy.
You have to understand yourself first. I would suggest getting a job and saving up a bit o' cash, then travel for a month. Go to Europe, go to Canada, go to Mexico... whatever you do, take some time to yourself and figure out what YOU need and want. Try to absorb yourself in different cultures.. you'll find that people can be happy with nothing in some places. I know, living in the city, that most people revolve thier lives around money. If you get out of your habitat for a while, not only will it bring spiritual inspiration, but creative inspiration as well... who knows, maybe you could write of your travels, make a film and get fame through that... but it shouldn't be about "getting famous"... it should be about figuring stuff out... get curious... what do you want to know? Is there a place or culture you have been interested in learning?
I know a guy who just left to teach English in Japan for a year... he's always loved Eastern cinema and now he's getting first-hand experience of the culture. When he gets back, he'll have one hell of a tale under his belt.
Don't worry Gav... everything works out in the end. Karma, dude. Just do unto others and all that and eventually you will be happy.
If you go to Mexico, don't drink the water.
-Logan-