There will be no screening of Wayward Traveler--The show is over.

Just an update:

We went the news station camerras blazing and they were politely talking to us when a guy came out of the front door being a total prick. He said he was the director of photography but another lady came out and called him security. Apparently news channel 9 hired a DP/securuty gaurd. Is it really that bad?

I got the whole thing on film. I am going to blur out his face and lower his voice in pitch and post the footage in a little while.

But for the record he told me that the news doesn't care about a corporation stomping on someone.

when I was driving away I was thinking about how they send investigative reporters to invade peoples privacy all thwe time. They sure don't like it done to them.

lol


I have no idea what we are going to do now. The car is going back and I sure as hell cant stay in denver because of my social security benefits being set up in oregon and my RV sitting in sacramento.


there are no answers right now
 
So, I'm just sitting here in a motel. Eric is returning the car. Everything we own is in the room. We have a little bit of cash. Our options are these:

We can sit here in Denver and trake this apartment, try to work our way out of this mess with no car.

Or we can take the remaining money we have and try to get to durango, co about 350 miles from here where we have friends that can put us up.

I'm not tryingt o be fatalistic here but this experience has made me lose a lot of faith in society. This could have been a case where public outcry could have fixed the problem. dollar would have been forced to deal with us. I sponsored the video thinking i lived in a country of fighters. my stats right now say there were 200,000 impressions with only 109 views.

I didnt ask anyone for money, or anything other than for people tp post the video, some grass roots support. I got nothing in return.

Everyone in here says my story is gold but i just stood in front of a news director who told me that this is not a worthwhile story.

You can think of me any way you want but I am going to post the docu of our trip and everything that happened and I am finished.

It's not just this situation. I was raised by an angry abusive police officer; I have not seen my children in three years because their mother uses my child support money to hire lawyers then leaving me with no money to hire one on my own. Then the accident, and years of crushing paralysis, and the associated morphine addiction that came with all that. And maybe this seems like too much to reveal in a forum but I got so involved with the morphone I eneded up doing a year in jail.

I got out and began traveling. In the last three years I have stayed sober, cleaning up my act, worked my ass of to make something of myself. There has never been a moment in my life that was easy and I've come to a point where I have accpeted the difficulties. I just pushed through them.

Then I started filming.


For all the hard work and sacrifice and the years of sobriety and self improvement all I've gotten out of it is nothing. I still can't see my kids. I still can't make art like I want to and once again I am at zero.

I am desperately asking people not to judge me for being candid. I am in a really horrible place right now. I don't want anything from anyone except a little understanding.

These wounds are raw and bleeding.
 
but a bus ticket to where and I get paid on the first, it was my ss money that i used to rent the car to begin with. I don't know if anyone is aware of this but we rented the car specifically to film a charity piece to help the victims of the train crash in nevada, so i was literally using my own money to try to get help for these people who are suffering from this tragedy. The net result was dollar rent a car.

I think most people cant grasp onto the concept of not having a home. I don't have one and I really dont have any family. Sure I can get a bus ticket to anywhere but when I get there I am just homeless in a different location. not to mention that i have to haul all of our equipment with us if we want to be able to make money with our camera. greyhound is cheap but when you start adding bags it gets really expensive.

when I say I dont have any family.... I called my mom earlier, she is a social worker. when I aksed her if she could make a couple of calls for me to try to work something out with dollar--her boyfriend is a judge in ohio--she said, "you are calling your mommy for help?!" lol

so no, I dont have anyone.
 
the story i see in this as far as a ducumentary goes would be:

guy spend years recovering alone from a horrbile car accident

guy chases dream of being a filmmaker

guy takes his own limites social security money and essentially donates it to a film to try and help the victims of a train crash considering the suffering of others well above the risk that he may end up with nothing

guys rents car to do project and rent a car company scams him

guy ends up homeless and distitute while the world carries on


on a side note. No one esle on the face of the earth went to thast crash site to do something like I did. I am the only human being on this planet that drove there witha camera and put together something to try to help.


In return for my generosity I'v been repaid with this situation.


I think it's high time I stop caring about other people and do what the rest of the world is doinbg right now, think of me and me alone. lesson learned
 
There are homeless shelters as well. You gotta do what you gotta do. So get to it.

Also, if you. attorney thinks you have a case, he/she will probably take it on pro bono.
 
man, you really don't get it. I have been on the road for years, many years. I don't have a home to go back to. There is o where to for me to go, nowhere nothing nada, zero, zilch nothing. how many times can I say that?

bus tickets don't solve my problem, the thought of some day winning a civil case that will go on for years doesn't solve my problem, the police don't care, no on on the face of the earth cares, no one

thats it

thats where things stand

right now I am sitting in the middle of denver, a huge city where I will never get help. I have $400 and dragging an i5 and an hvx 200 into a homeless shelter seems a bit crooked to me


we have to essentially throw everything we own in the trash if we want to go anywhere


you really really really don't get it

and as far as the documentary that might be gold? if no one cares now while its happening live then then why the hell would anyone care 5 months down the road when it's a film


i dont give a fuck anymore. im done with filmmaking. I did my best and the american people had a chance to rise up, grassroots style and get our story out.

I dont ever want to hear any bitch again about corporate tyranny because all the fucking advocates on the earth just sat back and let us get fucked in the ass with no lube. let them rule the earth. this conversation is over.
 
I think you're right. I don't get it.
Taking it at face value - you're completely screwed and there is no hope for recourse.

Being that there is no hope for help - I won't try to offer any. Just say it's a shame that some people get screwed, and I'm glad I'm not you.

If you're not going up, than you're staying where you are or your going down. Hope you at least stay where you are.
 
Wow, calm down a bit there. You've explained over and over what your situation is. We get it. We understand. You just need to calm down, work your way past it by getting a job, and pursue something that doesn't take a lot of money to make a living on. Film making is, for almost all of us here, the main lane of a motor way - to get on the main lane and make a living, you have to build up by staying in the slip lane for a while to build up speed.

Basically, get a job that you can use to keep yourself alive. Film making shouldn't have been the only thing left in your life when it was your first venture into it. It isn't like other media.

Also, "if noone cares now while its happening live then why the hell would anyone care 5 months down the road when it's a film"? Because the audience for news is different than the audience for documentaries - the news is about gossip and shock and being nice, whereas documentaries talk about specific things and draw in specific people to watch it and sympathise for you. NOONE gave half a shit about Jade Goodey but she was all over the news because "OH NO SHE HAD THE CANCER", as if she was somehow the unique flower amongst all suffering cancer patients.

I'm done with filmmaking.
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That's what you get when you put all your eggs in the basket (is that the right saying?). A basket made of thin paper, holding eggs of water and with concrete below it.
 
platitudes and cliches are worthless. When you have only one egg to begin with you have no choice but to put it in one basket.

While everyone seems to think this stpry is golden I am sitting in the middle of a forum full of filmmakers and I don't hear any offers.

The get a job thing--which seems completely reasonable to you--is completely irrational to me. You are in the UK, I'm not. This is the United States. In the United States if you are legally disabled you are only allow to make only $700 over you benfit amount before you lose all your benefits. If I go get a job I will lose the only income and healthcare that I have not to mention that there are no jobs anywhere. So here I come. I have been on the road for years, I have had no stable residence or employment, I am legally disabled, on top of not having any of the things you would to keep a job, like a home, or decent clothes, or a car, or money to ride the bus.


I get that you are trying to help but suggesting things that are not feasible does not help.

Am I dealing with basic psychology here? Is this what women are talking about when they say they just want a man to listen instead of trying to solve his problems? I think I'm learning something here.


Also, I don't think you are realizing that there are two of us here, so renting a small room is damn near impossible because no one wants to rent to two guys. In addition when I go to even begin renting a room they want employment history, references from past landlords. The last place I lived I owned. I dont have any references.

Again I don't think anyone is grasping onto the seriousness of this situation. I have no options.

And believe me I have been trying to get back on myu feet for years after my accidednt and it's always the same stumbling blocks. no references, no stable work history, no income other than social security... really
 
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man, you really don't get it. (1) I have been on the road for years, many years. I don't have a home to go back to. There is o where to for me to go, nowhere nothing nada, zero, zilch nothing. how many times can I say that?

bus tickets don't solve my problem, the thought of some day winning a civil case that will go on for years doesn't solve my problem, the police don't care, no on on the face of the earth cares, no one

thats it

thats where things stand

(2)right now I am sitting in the middle of denver, a huge city where I will never get help. I have $400 and dragging an i5 and an hvx 200 into a homeless shelter seems a bit crooked to me
we have to essentially throw everything we own in the trash if we want to go anywhere


you really really really don't get it

and as far as the documentary that might be gold? if no one cares now while its happening live then then why the hell would anyone care 5 months down the road when it's a film


(3)i dont give a fuck anymore. im done with filmmaking. (4) I did my best and the american people had a chance to rise up, grassroots style and get our story out.

I dont ever want to hear any bitch again about corporate tyranny because all the fucking advocates on the earth just sat back and let us get fucked in the ass with no lube. (5) let them rule the earth. (6) this conversation is over.
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1. How have you survived so far?

2. Homeless people have stuff too. But you can always sleep where you fall.

3. Neither do I.

4. You are not the American people's responsibility. You are your own responsibility.

5. They already do.

6. Good.
 
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platitudes and cliches are worthless. When you have only one egg to begin with you have no choice but to put it in one basket.

While everyone seems to think this stpry is golden I am sitting in the middle of a forum full of filmmakers and(1) I don't hear any offers.

The get a job thing--which seems completely reasonable to you--is completely irrational to me. You are in the UK, I'm not. This is the United States. In the United States if you are legally disabled you are only allow(2) to make only $700 over you benfit amount before you lose all your benefits. If I go get a job I will lose the only income and healthcare that I have not to mention that(3) there are no jobs anywhere. So here I come. (4)I have been on the road for years, I have had no stable residence or employment, I am legally disabled, on top of not having any of the things you would to keep a job, like a home, or decent clothes, or a car, or money to ride the bus.


I get that you are trying to help but suggesting things that are not feasible does not help.

Am I dealing with basic psychology here? (5)Is this what women are talking about when they say they just want a man to listen instead of trying to solve his problems? I think I'm learning something here.


(6)Also, I don't think you are realizing that there are two of us here, so renting a small room is damn near impossible because no one wants to rent to two guys. In addition when I go to even begin renting a room they want employment history, references from past landlords. The last place I lived I owned. I dont have any references.

Again I don't think anyone is grasping onto the seriousness of this situation.(7) I have no options.
And believe me I have been trying to get back on myu feet for years after my accidednt and it's always the same stumbling blocks. no references, no stable work history, no income other than social security... really
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1. If we could afford to pay for movies to be made, we would make our own.

2. What about the other guy?

3. BS

4. Again, how have you been surviving on the road?

5. Noone here is your girlfriend.

6. Yea, we realize. What's he doing to help out??

7. Yes you do. You're balking on them.
 
And for all this stuff I am down about.... I am fucking good at what I do. The Wayward Traveler Nevada is the first piece of film I've ever done. I filmed it, edited, scored it in less than 36 hours. If you can watch that and cosider that the person who made it has never done anything but webcam video on youtube all it takes is a little vision to see what I cvould accomplish with a little funding.

We are going to get out of this mess. When we do I am going to edit together the pilot episode of the show and I want all of you to see what can be acvcomplished on a budget of $500 as month. I have footage people dream on my drive. No matter how bad all of this is I have a terabyte of trylu unique and original shots.

I know everyone sits there and says "I am going to be big someday" but in my case it's no joke. I wanted a major record label deal, and awards for my guitar playing: I got them. I wanted to travel and make a show, and up until this bullshit I had done it. I showed my footage to Sergio Aragones when I was in San Francisco--he is the margin drawing artist for Mad Magazine--and he went crazy over it. I have him on film saying "You are going to be successful and you deserve every bit of it. I'm really impressed" And dont forget that he has every artistic award a cartoonist can possibly win.

We met in Vegas with Rockstar Energy Drink, and 5 hour energy drink in San Fran, we were sponsored by Hilton until the Tsunami. I have existing sponsorship opportunites in which these compaies are just waiting for some finished footage. We were even approached by someone from Warner Brothers whern we were in LA but they wanted to make the show into a reality show and that is not what I want.

for all the amazing opportunities I have right now none of them matter because i am homeless and i cant dit together the pilot while i am homeless.

fuck, if I just had a damn van to live in to edit it together I would be set.

I'm not trying to be egotistical with all of this but really... Until six months ago I never had an interest in film. I wanted a show so I made one. The offers rolled in. I took them and put together the rough framework for the show.


My frustration is coming from the fact that I am on the fucvking edge of being successful and dollar rent a car hadf to go and fuck me knocking me back three months. fuck man. Going and getting a day job would be ridiculous for me. I weould be throwing away a couple of hundred thousand dollars.



but whatever. I'll fix this. I have no choice. When I do finish this show it's going to be worth it. Until then I have to live with the fact that no one om the face of the earth gives a fuck about another human being enough to share a damn video...

Here are the stats with no advertizing whatsoever:

Wayward traveler teaser trailer is at 604 views--not sponsored
wayward traveler nevada is at 509 views--not sponsored

dollar rent a car help a human being out-- 100 views--sponsored

those statistics make me wish Dimitri would activate the doomsday devoce and wipe the infestation that is humanity off the face of the earth.
 
Here's some questions I have.

If you're on S.S. why are you paying child support?

Is it because you were divorced before your accident?

Why aren't you allowed to see your children?

Why wont your mother help you out of a bind?

Why did you go to jail, exactly?

What are the details of the accident you had that caused your paralysis(ms)??

Why would some woman attack you, out of the blue, and then the police arrest you?

There seem to be some gaping holes in your story man. I personally don't think you are credible.
 
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