Face it. No matter if its just a silly hobby or heading for the victory line, we all more or less want to be the next Tarantino or M. Night Shyamalan-Cinderella story.
My Goals, hates and My Fears.
I am 38, Middle class white male with average life, Beatiful Family, Dog, Morgage Payment, 2nd Generation California Native (Northern) with a love for low budget and older films.
First my Hates.
95% of Hollywood Big Budget films made after 1990s.
Materialistic youths with their Vanity lifestyles aroused and inspired by the souless (edited) Mainstream music of today.
Music of Today
Bush
Kerry
"Just War"
death of young men in Just War
"God bless America" (As opposed to God bless us all)
Any kid from middle class suburb who thinks he understands Ghetto Life and talks it.
Mexicans who think they own the southwest (They took the land from Native Americans first)
Anyone who thinks God and Jesus hates "Faggots"
Gay people who think they are a minority and suffer as much as blacks do.
Non Jews who think its hip to talk the german ghetto language (Yiddish) without really understanding its origin.
Thinks RUSH is some fat Republican guy instead of one of the Greatest Rock bands out of Canada.
There is alot more but I dont want to bore you. im full of hate
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Fears....
Having the same Genes as a Father who suffered from 10 years of Diabetes and died at age 50 of a heart attack related to kidney failure. His father at 64, Mother at 32 and brother at 64 all from Type 1 Diabetes (again I am 38, 39 on the 24th of this month.. 11 years
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Wondering if what i wanted to do for my entire life is not fulfilled. A promise to God that I will make at least one movie or write at least one story in my lifetime and have it published to be remembered by. no matter how many people view it.
Working with people (Pretty hard since I cant make a film on my own.. can I?)
People who will come into my children and wife's life (assuming I leave this planet before them)
A world in which only souless, greedy people exists.
My family (Mother, children, Wife, Inlaws, Cousin, Siblings, Friends) never understand me or my dreams and never respect them.
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Goals...
Being happy just by trying and finishing what it was I wanted to do all these years.
What is your Fear, Hate and Goals?
My Goals, hates and My Fears.
I am 38, Middle class white male with average life, Beatiful Family, Dog, Morgage Payment, 2nd Generation California Native (Northern) with a love for low budget and older films.
First my Hates.
95% of Hollywood Big Budget films made after 1990s.
Materialistic youths with their Vanity lifestyles aroused and inspired by the souless (edited) Mainstream music of today.
Music of Today
Bush
Kerry
"Just War"
death of young men in Just War
"God bless America" (As opposed to God bless us all)
Any kid from middle class suburb who thinks he understands Ghetto Life and talks it.
Mexicans who think they own the southwest (They took the land from Native Americans first)
Anyone who thinks God and Jesus hates "Faggots"
Gay people who think they are a minority and suffer as much as blacks do.
Non Jews who think its hip to talk the german ghetto language (Yiddish) without really understanding its origin.
Thinks RUSH is some fat Republican guy instead of one of the Greatest Rock bands out of Canada.
There is alot more but I dont want to bore you. im full of hate
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Fears....
Having the same Genes as a Father who suffered from 10 years of Diabetes and died at age 50 of a heart attack related to kidney failure. His father at 64, Mother at 32 and brother at 64 all from Type 1 Diabetes (again I am 38, 39 on the 24th of this month.. 11 years
)Wondering if what i wanted to do for my entire life is not fulfilled. A promise to God that I will make at least one movie or write at least one story in my lifetime and have it published to be remembered by. no matter how many people view it.
Working with people (Pretty hard since I cant make a film on my own.. can I?)
People who will come into my children and wife's life (assuming I leave this planet before them)
A world in which only souless, greedy people exists.
My family (Mother, children, Wife, Inlaws, Cousin, Siblings, Friends) never understand me or my dreams and never respect them.
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Goals...
Being happy just by trying and finishing what it was I wanted to do all these years.
What is your Fear, Hate and Goals?
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VPTurner!