I'm coming to a big milestone in my life. Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read about my situation
I'm a 17 year old female approaching the end of my junior year. Most of my classmates are applying for college, and I haven't even started. This is for two reasons: one, I want to be a filmmaker/screenwriter, and two, I've lately picked up a very negative and cynical attitude towards school in general due to a poisonous school environment (extremely competitive, narcissistic, AP obsessed kids, and I stick out like a sore thumb). I am determined to avoid debt like the plague, because I know it kills dreams. I have a twin sister, and we both have the same career aspirations. We want to break into the industry together, and I currently don't see a future (at least in the next five years) where we are separated. She's my second half. I have major anxiety issues that make being apart from her an extremely distressing experience
Here's where things get tricky. My sister, who has been treated for depression and has motivational issues, is doubting the no-college route. We've been clashing a lot lately, and my solid opinions have even been shaken. I'll give you a short summary on both sides
MY SISTER
My sister wants to go to film school to escape a negative home environment (my father is a procrastinator who can't get anything done; we have no blinds, a junk car, and a broken TV stand that have gone unfixed for three years, because he has too many emotional issues to do anything about it). She thinks college would fix her motivational issues, and that she isn't "strong enough" to go the total indie route. She doesn't think she has the social skills to get out there and make her career happen through sheer grit. She's also convinced that film school is the only place you can meet other filmmakers, get access to equipment, and make connections
ME
I want to avoid debt by any means necessary. I think filmmaking is a career that requires risk, and risks can't be taken if you have debt hanging over you. I don't want to bankrupt my parents, and if I'm really not good enough or not cut out to be a filmmaker/screenwriter, I'd like to find out NOW rather than after going through four long years of film school. I think all forms of higher education are too expensive nowadays, and I just don't think the experience is worth it. It all seems like a propaganda ridden, money siphoning machine. I know how bleak job prospects are (especially for filmmakers)
I just don't know what to do. I haven't told my parents about any of this. I've been rigorously screenwriting for three years, reading $200 worth of books, and they have no idea. I feel so much stress, pressure, and negativity every day, so much so that it feels like I'm drowning and there's no point in even trying. It feels like failure is inevitable. Life just seems so hard right now, I sometimes wonder if it's worth it. The ONLY circumstance in which I would ever consider going to film school is if I could graduate with less than $5,000 worth of debt; although, a small part of me feels like any school that cheap just isn't good quality (I don't need/want state of the art, but I don't want complete crap either. I could get that quality education for free on my own)
So, I guess what I'm asking is this. Do you agree with my sisters point of view, or mine? Should I go to film school? Do you think there's any point in going to film school?. Basically, any advice on what I should do with my situation would be immensely helpful
Thanks so much for any input I'm just completely lost here
I'm a 17 year old female approaching the end of my junior year. Most of my classmates are applying for college, and I haven't even started. This is for two reasons: one, I want to be a filmmaker/screenwriter, and two, I've lately picked up a very negative and cynical attitude towards school in general due to a poisonous school environment (extremely competitive, narcissistic, AP obsessed kids, and I stick out like a sore thumb). I am determined to avoid debt like the plague, because I know it kills dreams. I have a twin sister, and we both have the same career aspirations. We want to break into the industry together, and I currently don't see a future (at least in the next five years) where we are separated. She's my second half. I have major anxiety issues that make being apart from her an extremely distressing experience
Here's where things get tricky. My sister, who has been treated for depression and has motivational issues, is doubting the no-college route. We've been clashing a lot lately, and my solid opinions have even been shaken. I'll give you a short summary on both sides
MY SISTER
My sister wants to go to film school to escape a negative home environment (my father is a procrastinator who can't get anything done; we have no blinds, a junk car, and a broken TV stand that have gone unfixed for three years, because he has too many emotional issues to do anything about it). She thinks college would fix her motivational issues, and that she isn't "strong enough" to go the total indie route. She doesn't think she has the social skills to get out there and make her career happen through sheer grit. She's also convinced that film school is the only place you can meet other filmmakers, get access to equipment, and make connections
ME
I want to avoid debt by any means necessary. I think filmmaking is a career that requires risk, and risks can't be taken if you have debt hanging over you. I don't want to bankrupt my parents, and if I'm really not good enough or not cut out to be a filmmaker/screenwriter, I'd like to find out NOW rather than after going through four long years of film school. I think all forms of higher education are too expensive nowadays, and I just don't think the experience is worth it. It all seems like a propaganda ridden, money siphoning machine. I know how bleak job prospects are (especially for filmmakers)
I just don't know what to do. I haven't told my parents about any of this. I've been rigorously screenwriting for three years, reading $200 worth of books, and they have no idea. I feel so much stress, pressure, and negativity every day, so much so that it feels like I'm drowning and there's no point in even trying. It feels like failure is inevitable. Life just seems so hard right now, I sometimes wonder if it's worth it. The ONLY circumstance in which I would ever consider going to film school is if I could graduate with less than $5,000 worth of debt; although, a small part of me feels like any school that cheap just isn't good quality (I don't need/want state of the art, but I don't want complete crap either. I could get that quality education for free on my own)
So, I guess what I'm asking is this. Do you agree with my sisters point of view, or mine? Should I go to film school? Do you think there's any point in going to film school?. Basically, any advice on what I should do with my situation would be immensely helpful
Thanks so much for any input I'm just completely lost here