Films Help Me Find Meaning

Hello to all. 🙋‍♀️ I am an engineering student from Turkey who doesn't want to pursue a career in engineering but wants to make films. I registered to this forum to help myself get through the day while I'm working on my studies (I kind of have to) and also because I am reluctant to go into real-life filmmaking circles yet. I am interested in film as a medium and an art form, analyzing what different people do with it from pre to post production brings me a meaningful kind of joy. I want to be a scholar of films, then I want to bring something of mine to the medium, as I suppose we kind of all do. My favourite movies change all the time as I discover new ways of looking and understanding. Nice to meet you all!