I want to write and direct feature films; this much I know. I have this...yearning; it's deep inside of me. It's in my bones, I can feel it building with veracious intensity inside of my soul. I'm starting to believe that making films is my calling, it's more than just an interest to me. It has to be more than a hobby. I know I'm crazy; as filmmakers, aren't we all crazy? While the rest of our peers are preparing to be doctors, lawyers, and indian cheifs, we're preparing to enter the riskiest business in the world--a business with absolutely no guarantees, no matter how talented or ambitious you are.
So I've reviewed my options...all two of them. Either I go to film school...or I don't. In order to go to film school I would have to take out a student loan in the neighborhood of seventy-five thousand dollars--money that I could be using to fund a film of my own. However, in film school, I can afford to make mistakes, I can learn from the best, I can be surrounded by like-minded people. Plus an M.F.A. is a teaching degree, which means I would have a fall-back plan if my luck runs out.
However, I can't stop thinking that I should stop delaying the inevitable and just make a goddamn film--not one of my short videos, but a real film. I would scrimp and save and take out loans, and scrounge for investors, and sell my soul to satan for a few more feet of film stock...whatever it takes. I'm young, I'm ambitious, I'm motivated, and most importantly: fucking crazy. If I choose the film school route, I would most likely do all of that anyway, but I'd be seventy-five thousand dollars in debt while doing it--not a fun scenario.
I don't know, I guess I'm really just asking for a little advice or direction. Will going to film school get me any closer to directing feature films than not going to film school? If so, is it seventy-five thousand dollars closer, or is the furtherance not worth the money?
Who knows? Maybe I'll be the next Paul Thomas Anderson, or Jonathan Demme...or maybe I'll be living in a trash-can in the alley behind a porno theater. It's kind of a 50/50 situation in this business. But is there a route that will offer me a slightly better chance of achieving success?
So I've reviewed my options...all two of them. Either I go to film school...or I don't. In order to go to film school I would have to take out a student loan in the neighborhood of seventy-five thousand dollars--money that I could be using to fund a film of my own. However, in film school, I can afford to make mistakes, I can learn from the best, I can be surrounded by like-minded people. Plus an M.F.A. is a teaching degree, which means I would have a fall-back plan if my luck runs out.
However, I can't stop thinking that I should stop delaying the inevitable and just make a goddamn film--not one of my short videos, but a real film. I would scrimp and save and take out loans, and scrounge for investors, and sell my soul to satan for a few more feet of film stock...whatever it takes. I'm young, I'm ambitious, I'm motivated, and most importantly: fucking crazy. If I choose the film school route, I would most likely do all of that anyway, but I'd be seventy-five thousand dollars in debt while doing it--not a fun scenario.
I don't know, I guess I'm really just asking for a little advice or direction. Will going to film school get me any closer to directing feature films than not going to film school? If so, is it seventy-five thousand dollars closer, or is the furtherance not worth the money?
Who knows? Maybe I'll be the next Paul Thomas Anderson, or Jonathan Demme...or maybe I'll be living in a trash-can in the alley behind a porno theater. It's kind of a 50/50 situation in this business. But is there a route that will offer me a slightly better chance of achieving success?